I am not keeping up with ...
everything or anything anymore. I am so far behind in all my expectations. I no longer can keep up with my blog and the lovely comments. I no longer can keep up with my Facebook and the lovely people there. Twitter and Instagram have been sitting neglected on the shelf for so long now.
I have a million pictures and videos and stories that I want to share. And that is just the social media part of life. I never will catch up. And then I got to thinking more and more about this. I can't do it all. I have to be able to focus on what is the main event of this life, what am I here for.
I have been thinking of women and the role women play in society today. Especially the expectations of women today. There are society's expectations of us and then their are those expectations we place upon ourselves. It is almost impossible to achieve the expectations that society places upon women today so forget about those. I think they are like fake news expectations anyway. I could never fit the mold of what is expected of a woman to be like. I had to make my own.
I think the generations of women who grew up after I did, say those who grew up in the eighties and later, are much stronger and had more freedom to be themselves as a human and not fit the role models of a invented by media woman. All the preconceived ideas of who a woman should be are mostly all derived from male oriented media advertisement anyway.
I think instead it could have been modelled upon a humanitarian concept and the goal would be to be the most human we could be in this lifetime not the most "woman" we could be. Perhaps that is why women are less inclined to be supportive of each other and why successful women are viewed differently than successful men.
I still have clinging to my mind the expectations that I was raised with and hear those voices in my mind. We all do. Now I am nearly finished with all of it, I am ready to transform. Or perhaps I am just acuity aware of the aging process and the finality of life. My own frailty. I want to cram it all in. There are so many things that I want to accomplish now before my time is up.
I have given up on those dreams I had as a child and young girl because that is not who I am now and the world has changed. And I am changing and becoming more frail. (photo from Emily Carr House)
I have an endless tiredness that looms over me like a cloud.
My mind is flooded with creative ideas and the desire to learn more. But I cannot seem to put into motion and act upon the ideas I have right now. I still have so many dreams and I can actually see there is so little time. Many people my age just seem content to get old and continue their patterns. I am always in the process of transforming, learning and changing.
I have always been this way. Life has been my school and my education and I continue to be challenged with it. And like all creative people I periodically crash and burn before I transform to the next level. That is where I am now. Burnt out. I know the path I am on, it is just getting there that takes time. I am evolving.
So I may be blogging less and I will have less time for all those things that I used to do as I focus on some new adventures. I am so sorry I am unable to comment on your blogs and Facebooks as much. All I can do is take you along for the ride with me.
I seem to be at my YouTube channel every day now as making videos is very soothing to me and so easy so you will always find a new video there each day. This is my Playlist at islandrambles YouTube where there are around 300 videos. I plan to now spend some time to do the longer videos as YouTube encourages me to make the longer ones. I hope I can do that. I find the creative media of video is a way to totally express ones self and want to learn it. This is what I do. There is so much for me to learn.
I am eternally grateful for the ability to share my work with the kind people who read my blog, suffer my YouTube movies as I learn and click my Facebook page, you are all dear friends. To my great joy the unexpected gift of the hawk project brought to me many kind and gentle souls who I will treasure forever. When you see a butterfly think of me, it is me.
I am on Facebook so you can find me there, link in contact on the top. You can see my Island Rambles Fan Page where I post every day and also my own Facebook. I have started on Instagram also so you can find my photos there also. I post a video every day on my Island Rambles YouTube Channel also.
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(these are the pictures I took this week above, this fellow below visited me with his brother all week, I wish he had red on his breast then he would be rare)
Little Hawk of Sidney Memories
Memories of Baby Hawk of Sidney
Memories of Spunky
HAVE A GREAT WEEK BLOGGERS AND BIRDERS!!