I am trying to stay motivated....
but finding inspiration is difficult these days. I am so tired just doing everyday things. I have little energy for anything else.
I have been trying to draw faces, I have been practising as I have always had trouble recognising faces all my life.
As a child I was very blind but did not get glasses until I was about 14 years old and could finally see things then. Apparently the brain does not adjust to facial recognition unless it is learnt as a very young child so I developed some other skills. I mostly see people as colors, their aura and the sound of their inner voice. I feel them more than I see them.
I have also been trying to do some of my paintings like I used to do before but I seem to have several unfinished canvases just sitting there. I have a box of ideas. Still not doing them. Lost my talent and inspiration.
I used to dye and paint fabric and sew quilts and loved the texture of fabric as art. I worked with children for many years and they were my creations and they all became creative also.
Then I tried my hand at water color and went to a terrible class where the teacher was an architect wanted me to reproduce exactly as a photograph would be. So the watercolors still sit there on the desk. They look sad.
Motivation is a funny thing. Unless I have a deadline to publish or a commitment to produce something, I watch TV, look at the computer, blog and talk on Facebook. The person I thought I was is not doing the things I thought she would be doing. I was taken over by this new technical person with a fierce hunger for creativity in a new world in a new way where all things are possible with a click.
I discovered the camera a few years ago, not that long ago, seven or eight years ago. It took me to places I never thought I would be able to go. It gave me the ability to produce art and reality. I combined it with the computer. I only was able to get a camera with video a few years ago and that was that. Love at first video. I am still learning.
I discovered the computer about ten years ago, my son had a computer in the basement and I watched the Hornby Eagle cam for the very first time on the computer. That was the first time I was aware of how it completely connected people together. I had never been on the computer before. I quickly figured it out. Computers operate mathematically and logically it seems. Computers make all kinds of art and creatively possible to everyone as well as the feeling of being connected to something.
So that is a history of my lack of motivation and my evolution into this hobby of blogging, Facebooking, photoing, and now YouTubing. I sometimes wonder if I will ever go back to putting a pencil or paint brush to the paper again. I seem to be ever expanding into a virtual reality of this thing that is nothingness but is something. I cannot touch it, it is not tangible but it is a world that is there. It is a world of people who connect through the world in the web sphere. A new connection is formed in all of our brains, a new way of evolving and communicating and creating. I love it.
But I have a lingering doubt about what would happen if it all went away, we are so dependent upon the internet and our technology.
I have been writing my life stories out also and my poems but have not found a home for them so they will have to fall in here I guess. I could go to my Wordpress and try that. Not sure where to put the writing yet probably in here.
Writing about yourself takes courage and a certain amount of selfishness and ego to share it. Writing about another character is easy. It is when you shred your own emotions and memories bare in public that is a little bit frightening. I will try it and click delete many times I think.
Mom Eagle Sidney Nest 2
Young Eaglet Up Close Zoom Out
Hawk and Young Eaglets Learn to Fly
Looks like Spunky Not Him2
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